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11/20

Back and Forth..... and Back Again?

my heart ached,
how could i leave it unfinished?
i took steps to go away,
but went back
and forth
and back again....
oh, the pain!

my lips parched,
i cant leave it half-done -
no, i cannot go away!
i will go back
and forth
and back again...
can't refrain

my heart raced,
oh why is it so tough
to just leave it and run!
do i have to go back
and forth
and back again?
am i that insane?

like with unfinished stories,
from half-attended coffee mugs -
i cant walk away...
i will go back
and forth
and back again
and again and again! :)

[Well, this is what it does to you when you leave your coffee mug unfinished in the morning and rush back and forth wanting to dash to work but still not wanting to let go of coffee! :D]

Antidote or Pain?

She calms me, she claims me
she lays me bare
she finds me, she holds me
catches me unawares!

She plays me, she teases
sets up a trap!
she looks at me, she gestures
and am stuck in a time wrap!

She loves me, she hates me
and loves me again
she hurts me, she nurses
is both the antidote and the pain!

Coffee?

if you had to ask me what stimulation means

or what being-turned on is

or what being on high is all about....

if you ask me what seduction means

or how going weak in the knees feels like

or what's it like to to be intoxicated...

if you were to ask me what lifts me up

or what keeps me on toes

or what i am longing for...

i'd reply,

Coffee? :)

(Coffee comes to the rescue most of the times when i feel so sleepy and like the "dumb-self" in distress...such times, and especially when in office, coffee is the knight-ess in no armor ;)..)

Happyness!

being happy is easy

really is

i do not have to think much

when i think of bliss...

just have to close my eyes,

think of you

and there's the happiness streak

that leads to you!

rain, rain,

only if you'd come by

you'd ease the pain!

oh come by when you do,

come and slide over

no.. dont refrain..

the way you wet

my parched soul and life

cant you just remain?

i know you're there,

lurking looking...

and am waiting for you again!

oh rain!....

(pic clicked at Munnar, 2009)

Thought of You...

thought of you,

yet again

and stopping by to look,

to see, to say

to smile, to sway!

thought of the smile,

yet again

and passing by to steal,

a glance, a wink

to dream, to think!

thought of the laugh,

yet again

and flying by to feel,

the breeze, the wind

to smile, to grin!

My share of sky...

its not far away -the sky,

it just seems so

if you just reach out,

you'll see, you'll know..

stop trying,

stop trying to be happy or sad -

it is just around the corner..

true emotions, ain't frilly fad!

right within your reach,

is your share of sky :-)

reach out for the rainbow -

it's right here, the sky, your smile!

The Fling! ;-)

what is it
but a feeling first..
and slowly surely,
there's a fling burst ;)

and then this fling
takes you where
your thoughts have not
it lays bare -

the real and the unreal,
such is a flight
Tw'ixt dreams and the real
oh and then surely the plight?

yes, when they land
these unreal flights
with a jolt here and there –
lo behold, there's a fight :D

from the feeling to the fling
and when it turns to a flight
all is well, yes, all is
until the flight turns a fight ;)

so before you get into
feeling the fling –
beware my friend!
of such rambling! :D

To hide...

to hide from her smile,
from that teasing glance
and to sneak a look
when i have a chance...

to hide from her laughter -
the resounding one
and to sneak another peek,
when she's done..

to hide from everything
that is just not her
and to open my eyes
to see, her, forever!

hi blog, what's up,
who you? what now?

err, umm, i am "the" one
who writes none?

No, i was busy -
ignoring's easy?

*sigh*you won't understand -
you state your stand!

i always wanted to!
nobody ever stopped you!

but, then, there was, so much...
excuses, fumbling, and such?

argghhh, okay, okay - what?
nothing, just start!

i will, i will, my blog, my friend! :-)
ah, that's setting a trend :-)

David Antony,
27/09/09; 0032 hrs...

Life for Rent...

...thanks to Dido - me and my friend, Shruti: had a good exchange of thoughts on our Orkut scrapbooks, in a different style though :-D

She has the lyrics of the song Life for Rent on her profile... and to that song, i replied, and then she did, and then i and then she....:

David:
it is just a thought, only a thought :-)

Shruti:
If my life is for rent...

David:
if it is,
till when, why
did you think of it?
did you reason why?

only a thought,
i agree, yes
but what's the root -
did you address?

if only a thought,
let it be, let it be...
for when it passes,
you'll smile, happily :-)

Shruti:
thoughts are troublesome
you may think those will pass...
they do not go away so easy...
will move keeping the scars apast

if my life is for rent..
I will see who would love it
because I want to see...
If it's all good I am living with...

but as if now, It's just a thought...
thinking about life is little pain
dont think the thoughts have no roots
it has been long time...since it rained...

David:
thoughts, troublesome or not
are replaced some day,
by new thoughts -
that will come your way...

for rent, lease, mortgage
temporarily, it is, can be...
but, remember, this time, these words
when they'll be gone, we'll still be :-)

let thoughts be thoughts
for they sprout anew
the rain, it will fall -
and your spirits renew :-)

Shruti:
so...as u said..
I will be waiting
for the new thoughts...
I will keep waiting

I hope that
new thoughts will sprout
give me a new life
I will keep waiting

I will live my life
no matter how it is
will not wait for others to decide...
my life is not for evaluating...

by those people
who never lived life..
and will not ever be living
I will not be waiting

I have released the thought
of renting my life..
I will myself take over it...
I cant be waiting...

David:
happy waiting,
i wish, i pray
and next time, they come
talk aloud, i say..

for when you air them
someone will catch, speak
give back new thoughts,
and answers that you seek

hApPy living,
not rented, renting - but your own
for the seeds for the new
are already sown....

you cant be waiting.
not now, not later
for that moment is now
and there is no greater!

so, spread your wings -
that's been drawn, close, shut
take out the signboard -
tell the world, the renting shop is shut :-D

...to be continued :-)

26th April, 2009

Living right, wrong,
living full, living at all...
Ain't they all relative?

i seek, i ask,
who can tell me?

Who can tell me more
so i receive what i seek
and be answered to what i ask....

Laughing right, wrong
laughing the right amount...
Ain't that subjective?

i knock, i call out
so that the answer be opened to me
and someone hears my call...

Too high, too low
or is it in between?
Ain't that estimative?

i measure, i ask myself
so that i know the right dimension
and realization, dawns upon....

Too near, very far,
or nearer than afar
aint that perspective?

i presume, i fear,
would someone assure me
and allay my fears?...

David Antony,
22/01/2009

Goodbye...

Does everyone
in their lifetime once,
have to say good bye?
Even when
not wanting to
do those moments just pass by?

Why, why,
why do we grow close to someone
only to go our own ways?!
Is this life?
that all of us live?
can we but otherwise, say?

I Don't know,
no, i don't! - what it is
and what is not
For even as
am still dreaming,
one by one, the dreams are shot!

Does it end?
once and for all?
the coming close and going apart?
If it wasn't,
if it wasn't to be
then why did it have to start?

What remains?
nothing but memories -
the ones we love to cling on!
Whatever they be,
they are all you have!
and life - doesn't it still go on?

Smiling again -
does it happen?
or is it tears all along?
But wait -
what use are tears?
Wouldn't you rather Smile on?

Goodbye?
when we say it daily
we mean to meet next day...
But this once -
when we say
we mean we're going away...

Going away?
to the seeing of again?
au revoir, i would say...
What else?
but i'll remember you
every night when i kneel to pray... :-)

David Antony,
03/11/2008

(i wrote this as a reply to what one of my friends and a wonderful poet Vatsal had posted on a forum - it was an instant reply, so a li'l crude. But i felt it best to keep it that way so it is what it is, a reply to Vatsy, a poet i admire and a question to myself :-)...)

Swinging... ;-)

I was swinging
Ahem! I mean, from tree to tree
And I was singing
Ever so happily!

Hopping from tree to tree
Oh what a fun it is :-)
If you haven’t tried it yet
you’ve missed it and the bliss!

Eve’thing was perfect
And everything so glee
Except for one awful moment
And my trademark stupidity!

I took a leap -
More than I could reach
And life decided
It had a new lesson to teach

Tumbling, falling, screaming -
I came crashing down
Eve’thing went up in air
All the laughter and the frowns

“Down comes the clown”,
said the onlookers and passers by...
And I tried my best to smile
but the fall didn’t help my “try”

“Thud” once, “thud” twice
and so many many more!
“Ouch” once and twice
and so many in store!

That gentle soothing sound within –
Firm and clear – it said to me
“grab a hold – right here, right now”
And I threw my arms – frantically

Ah! My hands - after all did
latch on to a branch!!
And hanging there in mid-air
i did an acrobatic dance ;-)

the more I danced, the more I thought
about the fall and such
but what else could I do now?
Just hang on - and nothing much…

Hanging on the branch of hope
I thought to myself now
Where did I go wrong?
How did I fall - just how?

The gentle soothing sound –
Yes, it spoke again!
“leave your grip and let go –
don’t live on with that pain”

Leave my grip and let go?
What a foolish thing to say!
I don’t know why – was I mad?
But I did it anyways!

I thought I was falling -
falling straight down…
but to my surprise, my feet -
they immediately felt firm ground!

Hanging on to that branch –
afraid of falling down…
I didn’t realize the fact -
I was just two feet off the ground ;-)

I walked off with a smile
and a lesson learnt that day
no more swinging from tree to tree
and reaching branches far, far away!

David Antony
09/09/08

Psst psst....On second thoughts….
Hanging on the branch of hope -
you never will know…
When your dreams answer you,
when at your doorstep show! :-)

So the question is - to hang or to let go? :-D

The Road Ahead

i wanted to tell her -
tell her not to go
we'd walk so many miles
she, me, our dreams...

we'd decide...
decide to leave eve'thing behind
stranded on the walk of life
our dreams, me, her absence

i see the road ahead..
the road ahead to nowhere!
i will keep walking
thinking, wondering, crying...

i'd be eager to look back
look back on the path we trod
and remember the times of joy -
of laughter, fun, and smiles

i'd like to know -
know where this road ends
for when it does, i'd lay down
my dreams, my heart, my hopes...

David Antony,
25/05/2008

Two steps with you in the walk of life,

two steps that have seen smiles and strife...

not the moon, the stars, or a bidding adieu,

all i want is to walk the remaining steps of my life with you! :-)

(Pic clicked @ Ocean Beach, San Francisco)

When the Universe Stands Still...



Hark, night!...
don’t move, stay still
the starts, the moon – shine…
shine on my window sill

shine, shine brightly
make her eyes sparkle
and when your light falls on her face,
behold! A spectacle…

I’d want you to stay still night
till we stay in this embrace
and as I gaze into her eyes -
captivated by her grace…

in the closeness of the moment,
the universe will stand still…
and I know, me and her,
we’ll be glad for it to, we will! :-)

David Antony
1st May, 2008
(Photo clicked at Pier 39, San Francisco)

Spotting the Stars....

i stepped out to spot the star
the one that'll stare back at me..
and when i smile at it -
smile back with endless glee...

so i began looking up above...
one, two, three and not one yet..
but i had just started counting -
so what was there to fret?

four and five and six,
and still no smiles my way..
where did those stars go?
not one did choose to stay?

there will be one...
i know there will be atleast one
for there were so many who'd smile at me -
can't believe, now, there's none!

one thousand and one..
and one thousand and two and three....
and one .......tho..
lo! i drifted into a sad, frustrated sleep

in my dreams i counted stars
and the count still stood at "nought"
i tried to think what it meant..
and i grew more restless as i thought...

i woke up with a start -
thought it was 'cause of the count - "none"
but.. i realized, it was something beautiful..
it was the bright and shining sun :-)

though the stars are gone -
i wont worry about 'em smiling back...
for my Sun is shining bright!
and my Smile is back on track :-)

David Antony,
13/04/2008

It Rained Today...

it rained today..
and i thought about you...
the last time it rained..
we were together - me and you...

Well, the rains are here again,
soothing, soaking the land, the mind
if only you were with me,
a rainbow i could find..

i kept walking on -
raindrops hitting my head,
they kept speaking to my heart,
like a thousand words unsaid..

they spoke about those moments,
the ones i long to relive -
the moments i miss the most..
the magic those moments weaved...

it stopped raining,
but the land was wet, kissed by the rain..
and my mind, my eyes - wet..
kissed by the memories, by pain..

am waiting, waiting for you..
waiting to be together again,
and for the rainbow; for
when we're together, it will rain...

David Antony,
19/11/2007