Oh that she's frowning!...

oh that she's frowning
oh see her scorn
makes me go weak again
makes me love her more!

the way her eyes look at me
the way she tries to show anger
only tells me she loves me so -
only tells me to love her more!

she tells me she wont talk to me
but she wants me to talk right now!
she looks away but she looks for me -
only making me pine for her more!

she catches my smile
and tries to send back a frown..
to tell me hidden behind that veil
is a heart that loves me more :)

- David Antony, 02/23

On a High!...

i'd like to romance

all of them

in my own time

in my own style

as one by one

they appear

disappear

dancing in front of my eyes

teasing, seducing

leaving me high, sometimes dry...

i'd like to be touched

by all of them

in their own time

in their own style

one by one

they touch

and are gone

walking in front of my eyes

alluring, enticing

sometimes i ask how, sometimes why...

i'd like to succumb

to all of them

in their own time

in their own style

one by one, and together

i feel them

and then dont

playing on my mind

revealing, reveling

sometimes i feel high, sometimes i sigh... :)

for the joy of writing, and the company of words

to their reveling, revealing, alluring

I lay bare…I give in.. I am on high.. I sigh…

- David Antony, 02/16

He writes, in his heart...

the beauty of his lips touching yours
far surpasses a poet's verse
but when he speaks of moments such
it's beauty breathes life in his words

for he spoke not of things grand
nor things yet unseen, untold
your faintest smile, your simplest glance
in his heart he writes and holds :)

David Antony, 02/14

Beyond the 14" inch screen...

"lol", she said,
or she laughed?
yes, i guess she did
at me? my jokes?
Couldnt figure out yet
behind and beyond this mesh
of wires, screens and IM windows
"lol" is all that it showed...

we talked
about our dreams
the horizons we'd travel to
today? tomorrow?
couldnt say when
for hidden behind all these windows
beyond my fourteen inch screen
was a smile i hadnt yet seen..

days, months went by
and the laugh, i hadnt heard
the smile not seen yet
when? anytime soon?
wasn't sure if i would
but i still looked up and called out
right across the room she sat, still
and "lol", she said, "look at your screen and reply, you will?"
02/02/2012

Our Story

the lips i kissed
the hand i held
the breath i felt
wasnt yours..

the dreams i saw
the hurts i bore
the path i trod
were all mine...

the flowers i plucked
the lines i wrote
the tunes i hummed
werent for you

the sighs that passed
the tumult that brewed
the tears that flowed
were all mine....

the pages that were turned
the book that was shut
the story that ended
is ours.

01/28/2012


(Photo clicked @ Powai lake, Bombay, May 2009)

Rescuing the wings

(we were doing random tp when this pigeon fell in front of us - it was injured; We tried to locate vets around and finally had to rush it to the Parel Animal hospital hoping it would surive. It did not. Dedicating this one to the wings that wont spread again...)

Fly away,
you have wings..
Soar, glide
the sky's in your stride!

You stare at me helpless
i do likewise...
you have wings, can't fly
with none, i want to take to skies

hurt in the heart -
does that clip your wings?
The pain must be much to bear
can see it in your stare...

breathe not, like this
as if it is your last
am hoping the heart mends
help is round the bend!

you blinked once, twice
was that to say good bye?
i will never know...
Maybe, i'll ask the skies...

01/15/2012

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please dont be a
bulleted list
i like you
like unformatted text
do not care about
commas or such
i like you
like your flowing words!

11/20

Back and Forth..... and Back Again?

my heart ached,
how could i leave it unfinished?
i took steps to go away,
but went back
and forth
and back again....
oh, the pain!

my lips parched,
i cant leave it half-done -
no, i cannot go away!
i will go back
and forth
and back again...
can't refrain

my heart raced,
oh why is it so tough
to just leave it and run!
do i have to go back
and forth
and back again?
am i that insane?

like with unfinished stories,
from half-attended coffee mugs -
i cant walk away...
i will go back
and forth
and back again
and again and again! :)

[Well, this is what it does to you when you leave your coffee mug unfinished in the morning and rush back and forth wanting to dash to work but still not wanting to let go of coffee! :D]

Antidote or Pain?

She calms me, she claims me
she lays me bare
she finds me, she holds me
catches me unawares!

She plays me, she teases
sets up a trap!
she looks at me, she gestures
and am stuck in a time wrap!

She loves me, she hates me
and loves me again
she hurts me, she nurses
is both the antidote and the pain!

Coffee?

if you had to ask me what stimulation means

or what being-turned on is

or what being on high is all about....

if you ask me what seduction means

or how going weak in the knees feels like

or what's it like to to be intoxicated...

if you were to ask me what lifts me up

or what keeps me on toes

or what i am longing for...

i'd reply,

Coffee? :)

(Coffee comes to the rescue most of the times when i feel so sleepy and like the "dumb-self" in distress...such times, and especially when in office, coffee is the knight-ess in no armor ;)..)

Happyness!

being happy is easy

really is

i do not have to think much

when i think of bliss...

just have to close my eyes,

think of you

and there's the happiness streak

that leads to you!

rain, rain,

only if you'd come by

you'd ease the pain!

oh come by when you do,

come and slide over

no.. dont refrain..

the way you wet

my parched soul and life

cant you just remain?

i know you're there,

lurking looking...

and am waiting for you again!

oh rain!....

(pic clicked at Munnar, 2009)

Thought of You...

thought of you,

yet again

and stopping by to look,

to see, to say

to smile, to sway!

thought of the smile,

yet again

and passing by to steal,

a glance, a wink

to dream, to think!

thought of the laugh,

yet again

and flying by to feel,

the breeze, the wind

to smile, to grin!

My share of sky...

its not far away -the sky,

it just seems so

if you just reach out,

you'll see, you'll know..

stop trying,

stop trying to be happy or sad -

it is just around the corner..

true emotions, ain't frilly fad!

right within your reach,

is your share of sky :-)

reach out for the rainbow -

it's right here, the sky, your smile!

The Fling! ;-)

what is it
but a feeling first..
and slowly surely,
there's a fling burst ;)

and then this fling
takes you where
your thoughts have not
it lays bare -

the real and the unreal,
such is a flight
Tw'ixt dreams and the real
oh and then surely the plight?

yes, when they land
these unreal flights
with a jolt here and there –
lo behold, there's a fight :D

from the feeling to the fling
and when it turns to a flight
all is well, yes, all is
until the flight turns a fight ;)

so before you get into
feeling the fling –
beware my friend!
of such rambling! :D

To hide...

to hide from her smile,
from that teasing glance
and to sneak a look
when i have a chance...

to hide from her laughter -
the resounding one
and to sneak another peek,
when she's done..

to hide from everything
that is just not her
and to open my eyes
to see, her, forever!

hi blog, what's up,
who you? what now?

err, umm, i am "the" one
who writes none?

No, i was busy -
ignoring's easy?

*sigh*you won't understand -
you state your stand!

i always wanted to!
nobody ever stopped you!

but, then, there was, so much...
excuses, fumbling, and such?

argghhh, okay, okay - what?
nothing, just start!

i will, i will, my blog, my friend! :-)
ah, that's setting a trend :-)

David Antony,
27/09/09; 0032 hrs...

Life for Rent...

...thanks to Dido - me and my friend, Shruti: had a good exchange of thoughts on our Orkut scrapbooks, in a different style though :-D

She has the lyrics of the song Life for Rent on her profile... and to that song, i replied, and then she did, and then i and then she....:

David:
it is just a thought, only a thought :-)

Shruti:
If my life is for rent...

David:
if it is,
till when, why
did you think of it?
did you reason why?

only a thought,
i agree, yes
but what's the root -
did you address?

if only a thought,
let it be, let it be...
for when it passes,
you'll smile, happily :-)

Shruti:
thoughts are troublesome
you may think those will pass...
they do not go away so easy...
will move keeping the scars apast

if my life is for rent..
I will see who would love it
because I want to see...
If it's all good I am living with...

but as if now, It's just a thought...
thinking about life is little pain
dont think the thoughts have no roots
it has been long time...since it rained...

David:
thoughts, troublesome or not
are replaced some day,
by new thoughts -
that will come your way...

for rent, lease, mortgage
temporarily, it is, can be...
but, remember, this time, these words
when they'll be gone, we'll still be :-)

let thoughts be thoughts
for they sprout anew
the rain, it will fall -
and your spirits renew :-)

Shruti:
so...as u said..
I will be waiting
for the new thoughts...
I will keep waiting

I hope that
new thoughts will sprout
give me a new life
I will keep waiting

I will live my life
no matter how it is
will not wait for others to decide...
my life is not for evaluating...

by those people
who never lived life..
and will not ever be living
I will not be waiting

I have released the thought
of renting my life..
I will myself take over it...
I cant be waiting...

David:
happy waiting,
i wish, i pray
and next time, they come
talk aloud, i say..

for when you air them
someone will catch, speak
give back new thoughts,
and answers that you seek

hApPy living,
not rented, renting - but your own
for the seeds for the new
are already sown....

you cant be waiting.
not now, not later
for that moment is now
and there is no greater!

so, spread your wings -
that's been drawn, close, shut
take out the signboard -
tell the world, the renting shop is shut :-D

...to be continued :-)

26th April, 2009

Living right, wrong,
living full, living at all...
Ain't they all relative?

i seek, i ask,
who can tell me?

Who can tell me more
so i receive what i seek
and be answered to what i ask....

Laughing right, wrong
laughing the right amount...
Ain't that subjective?

i knock, i call out
so that the answer be opened to me
and someone hears my call...

Too high, too low
or is it in between?
Ain't that estimative?

i measure, i ask myself
so that i know the right dimension
and realization, dawns upon....

Too near, very far,
or nearer than afar
aint that perspective?

i presume, i fear,
would someone assure me
and allay my fears?...

David Antony,
22/01/2009

Goodbye...

Does everyone
in their lifetime once,
have to say good bye?
Even when
not wanting to
do those moments just pass by?

Why, why,
why do we grow close to someone
only to go our own ways?!
Is this life?
that all of us live?
can we but otherwise, say?

I Don't know,
no, i don't! - what it is
and what is not
For even as
am still dreaming,
one by one, the dreams are shot!

Does it end?
once and for all?
the coming close and going apart?
If it wasn't,
if it wasn't to be
then why did it have to start?

What remains?
nothing but memories -
the ones we love to cling on!
Whatever they be,
they are all you have!
and life - doesn't it still go on?

Smiling again -
does it happen?
or is it tears all along?
But wait -
what use are tears?
Wouldn't you rather Smile on?

Goodbye?
when we say it daily
we mean to meet next day...
But this once -
when we say
we mean we're going away...

Going away?
to the seeing of again?
au revoir, i would say...
What else?
but i'll remember you
every night when i kneel to pray... :-)

David Antony,
03/11/2008

(i wrote this as a reply to what one of my friends and a wonderful poet Vatsal had posted on a forum - it was an instant reply, so a li'l crude. But i felt it best to keep it that way so it is what it is, a reply to Vatsy, a poet i admire and a question to myself :-)...)