The Search...

Why do I look for you

In the streets, in the sky?

..in everyone I see

in the clouds passing by?

Why do I crane my neck

to look for you in the flowers?

And stare at my watch,

finding you in every moment, every hour?

Why do I look everywhere

when I know you are on my mind…

..and in my heart, isn’t that where I should

look and isn’t that where you, I’ll find?

David Antony

03/21

hApPy Women's Day!

To all the wonderful women i've known, crossed paths with, and walked together...

An Answer to The Elevenses Tag!

A quick background: 

So Usha, who is on a Quest on Overdrive writes really amazing stuff and i land up on her post like a night owl in no time :D ..so one fine morning in the middle of the night ;) i see this post, The Elevenses Tag :) and find that am tagged and have to answer eleven questions about myself... the lady is generous enough to give me the choice of replying in prose on my other blog or try it poetically here... i took the path less traveled and that has made all the difference :P - as in i became the procrastinator i am and managed to finally write only last night...and here i am:

The 11 questions, i had to answer about myself:
1. In one word, what have you gained, in life, that you hold most precious? (there, that rules out “weight” )
2. In three words, a pet peeve?
3. A word you think you use a lot, unconsciously ?
4. What is it that you love to do, most, and would rather spend your time doing it
5. What do you think others think of you?
6. Who would you say made you who you are today (other than your parents, if that is what you would answer )
7. What gives you joy?
8. Your all time inspiration?
9. If you could go back to one moment in your past, which moment would it be?
10. Do you believe in alternate lifetimes? If so, what is the you there doing now? (It’s actually one question, with two parts )
11. What makes you you?


And my answers:
 
Open notepad,
big smiles - and i sit and wonder
for days since i've got the tag....
to rhyme or not to
might be the question
but are the answers ready in my bag?

Dig deep,
dig more - and i speak of wonders
for i know the answer, know the trend
in one word, what i have gained
that's close and most precious
it has to be, without blinking, my super-awesome friends!

Think now,
a li'l more - a pet peeve?
and say it in as many words, but three!
the first thing that strikes my mind
the first thing i will say is - honking
is a "sin (of the) highest degree"!

Recall now,
Consciously and not -
the word i use the most?
when happy, super-happy
and even when am sad -
"Awesomeness", takes the toast!

Blush now,
for i need to say
what is that the most i love?
i dont have to think much
for i love the rains and the mist the most
and to spend time in the rain and how!

I do not think
of what others think of me
for i am on the brink of insanity
and if they think of me so
i would grin, shamelessly so
and keep smiling in endless glee!

Flashback!
run the scenes of my life
to think what made me who i am today
can't pin point on one li'l-big thing
has to be a mix of experiences
- a mix of the black, white and the gray!

Hark, we speak of joy!
and do i not smile?
when we think of this prospect bright?
for it is easy to make me happy
li'l things are all that matter; but for now
i can say, it gives me joy any day to sit, grin, and write :D

Inspirations!
they come to me
in all shapes and sizes and styles
i get inspired by the smallest of things
the sight of rains, the feel of mist
a kind word or the simplest of smiles!

Travel in time?
and if i could go back to
one moment in my past...
will definetely be to the dingy hostel room
where we made friends for a lifetime
where we fought, laughed, and had a blast!

Lifetime number two?
oh yes, i do and right now
i am flying... and this cape doesnt fit right
but i will get there, will save the world
when am done with saving myself of
this tangled cape and be able to sit upright! ;)

what makes me, me
is again a mix of things
a pinch of salt, hint of spice, a dash of lime
such is the concoction
and when shaken together
stirred/unstirred and you have me at my prime! :D

03/01, David Antony

Oh that she's frowning!...

oh that she's frowning
oh see her scorn
makes me go weak again
makes me love her more!

the way her eyes look at me
the way she tries to show anger
only tells me she loves me so -
only tells me to love her more!

she tells me she wont talk to me
but she wants me to talk right now!
she looks away but she looks for me -
only making me pine for her more!

she catches my smile
and tries to send back a frown..
to tell me hidden behind that veil
is a heart that loves me more :)

- David Antony, 02/23

On a High!...

i'd like to romance

all of them

in my own time

in my own style

as one by one

they appear

disappear

dancing in front of my eyes

teasing, seducing

leaving me high, sometimes dry...

i'd like to be touched

by all of them

in their own time

in their own style

one by one

they touch

and are gone

walking in front of my eyes

alluring, enticing

sometimes i ask how, sometimes why...

i'd like to succumb

to all of them

in their own time

in their own style

one by one, and together

i feel them

and then dont

playing on my mind

revealing, reveling

sometimes i feel high, sometimes i sigh... :)

for the joy of writing, and the company of words

to their reveling, revealing, alluring

I lay bare…I give in.. I am on high.. I sigh…

- David Antony, 02/16

He writes, in his heart...

the beauty of his lips touching yours
far surpasses a poet's verse
but when he speaks of moments such
it's beauty breathes life in his words

for he spoke not of things grand
nor things yet unseen, untold
your faintest smile, your simplest glance
in his heart he writes and holds :)

David Antony, 02/14

Beyond the 14" inch screen...

"lol", she said,
or she laughed?
yes, i guess she did
at me? my jokes?
Couldnt figure out yet
behind and beyond this mesh
of wires, screens and IM windows
"lol" is all that it showed...

we talked
about our dreams
the horizons we'd travel to
today? tomorrow?
couldnt say when
for hidden behind all these windows
beyond my fourteen inch screen
was a smile i hadnt yet seen..

days, months went by
and the laugh, i hadnt heard
the smile not seen yet
when? anytime soon?
wasn't sure if i would
but i still looked up and called out
right across the room she sat, still
and "lol", she said, "look at your screen and reply, you will?"
02/02/2012

Our Story

the lips i kissed
the hand i held
the breath i felt
wasnt yours..

the dreams i saw
the hurts i bore
the path i trod
were all mine...

the flowers i plucked
the lines i wrote
the tunes i hummed
werent for you

the sighs that passed
the tumult that brewed
the tears that flowed
were all mine....

the pages that were turned
the book that was shut
the story that ended
is ours.

01/28/2012


(Photo clicked @ Powai lake, Bombay, May 2009)

Rescuing the wings

(we were doing random tp when this pigeon fell in front of us - it was injured; We tried to locate vets around and finally had to rush it to the Parel Animal hospital hoping it would surive. It did not. Dedicating this one to the wings that wont spread again...)

Fly away,
you have wings..
Soar, glide
the sky's in your stride!

You stare at me helpless
i do likewise...
you have wings, can't fly
with none, i want to take to skies

hurt in the heart -
does that clip your wings?
The pain must be much to bear
can see it in your stare...

breathe not, like this
as if it is your last
am hoping the heart mends
help is round the bend!

you blinked once, twice
was that to say good bye?
i will never know...
Maybe, i'll ask the skies...

01/15/2012

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please dont be a
bulleted list
i like you
like unformatted text
do not care about
commas or such
i like you
like your flowing words!

11/20

Back and Forth..... and Back Again?

my heart ached,
how could i leave it unfinished?
i took steps to go away,
but went back
and forth
and back again....
oh, the pain!

my lips parched,
i cant leave it half-done -
no, i cannot go away!
i will go back
and forth
and back again...
can't refrain

my heart raced,
oh why is it so tough
to just leave it and run!
do i have to go back
and forth
and back again?
am i that insane?

like with unfinished stories,
from half-attended coffee mugs -
i cant walk away...
i will go back
and forth
and back again
and again and again! :)

[Well, this is what it does to you when you leave your coffee mug unfinished in the morning and rush back and forth wanting to dash to work but still not wanting to let go of coffee! :D]

Antidote or Pain?

She calms me, she claims me
she lays me bare
she finds me, she holds me
catches me unawares!

She plays me, she teases
sets up a trap!
she looks at me, she gestures
and am stuck in a time wrap!

She loves me, she hates me
and loves me again
she hurts me, she nurses
is both the antidote and the pain!

Coffee?

if you had to ask me what stimulation means

or what being-turned on is

or what being on high is all about....

if you ask me what seduction means

or how going weak in the knees feels like

or what's it like to to be intoxicated...

if you were to ask me what lifts me up

or what keeps me on toes

or what i am longing for...

i'd reply,

Coffee? :)

(Coffee comes to the rescue most of the times when i feel so sleepy and like the "dumb-self" in distress...such times, and especially when in office, coffee is the knight-ess in no armor ;)..)

Happyness!

being happy is easy

really is

i do not have to think much

when i think of bliss...

just have to close my eyes,

think of you

and there's the happiness streak

that leads to you!

rain, rain,

only if you'd come by

you'd ease the pain!

oh come by when you do,

come and slide over

no.. dont refrain..

the way you wet

my parched soul and life

cant you just remain?

i know you're there,

lurking looking...

and am waiting for you again!

oh rain!....

(pic clicked at Munnar, 2009)

Thought of You...

thought of you,

yet again

and stopping by to look,

to see, to say

to smile, to sway!

thought of the smile,

yet again

and passing by to steal,

a glance, a wink

to dream, to think!

thought of the laugh,

yet again

and flying by to feel,

the breeze, the wind

to smile, to grin!

My share of sky...

its not far away -the sky,

it just seems so

if you just reach out,

you'll see, you'll know..

stop trying,

stop trying to be happy or sad -

it is just around the corner..

true emotions, ain't frilly fad!

right within your reach,

is your share of sky :-)

reach out for the rainbow -

it's right here, the sky, your smile!

The Fling! ;-)

what is it
but a feeling first..
and slowly surely,
there's a fling burst ;)

and then this fling
takes you where
your thoughts have not
it lays bare -

the real and the unreal,
such is a flight
Tw'ixt dreams and the real
oh and then surely the plight?

yes, when they land
these unreal flights
with a jolt here and there –
lo behold, there's a fight :D

from the feeling to the fling
and when it turns to a flight
all is well, yes, all is
until the flight turns a fight ;)

so before you get into
feeling the fling –
beware my friend!
of such rambling! :D

To hide...

to hide from her smile,
from that teasing glance
and to sneak a look
when i have a chance...

to hide from her laughter -
the resounding one
and to sneak another peek,
when she's done..

to hide from everything
that is just not her
and to open my eyes
to see, her, forever!

hi blog, what's up,
who you? what now?

err, umm, i am "the" one
who writes none?

No, i was busy -
ignoring's easy?

*sigh*you won't understand -
you state your stand!

i always wanted to!
nobody ever stopped you!

but, then, there was, so much...
excuses, fumbling, and such?

argghhh, okay, okay - what?
nothing, just start!

i will, i will, my blog, my friend! :-)
ah, that's setting a trend :-)

David Antony,
27/09/09; 0032 hrs...