Strumming the Strings of my Life

2012-02-02T07:25:00.000-08:00

"lol", she said,
or she laughed?
yes, i guess she did
at me? my jokes?
Couldnt figure out yet
behind and beyond this mesh
of wires, screens and IM windows
"lol" is all that it showed...

we talked
about our dreams
the horizons we'd travel to
today? tomorrow?
couldnt say when
for hidden behind all these windows
beyond my fourteen inch screen
was a smile i hadnt yet seen..

days, months went by
and the laugh, i hadnt heard
the smile not seen yet
when? anytime soon?
wasn't sure if i would
but i still looked up and called out
right across the room she sat, still
and "lol", she said, "look at your screen and reply, you will?"
02/02/2012

2012-01-28T10:37:00.000-08:00

the lips i kissed
the hand i held
the breath i felt
wasnt yours..

the dreams i saw
the hurts i bore
the path i trod
were all mine...

the flowers i plucked
the lines i wrote
the tunes i hummed
werent for you

the sighs that passed
the tumult that brewed
the tears that flowed
were all mine....

the pages that were turned
the book that was shut
the story that ended
is ours.

01/28/2012

(Photo clicked @ Powai lake, Bombay, May 2009)

2012-01-16T23:20:00.000-08:00

(we were doing random tp when this pigeon fell in front of us - it was injured; We tried to locate vets around and finally had to rush it to the Parel Animal hospital hoping it would surive. It did not. Dedicating this one to the wings that wont spread again...)

Fly away,
you have wings..
Soar, glide
the sky's in your stride!

You stare at me helpless
i do likewise...
you have wings, can't fly
with none, i want to take to skies

hurt in the heart -
does that clip your wings?
The pain must be much to bear
can see it in your stare...

breathe not, like this
as if it is your last
am hoping the heart mends
help is round the bend!

you blinked once, twice
was that to say good bye?
i will never know...
Maybe, i'll ask the skies...

01/15/2012

2011-11-20T21:39:00.000-08:00

please dont be a
bulleted list
i like you
like unformatted text
do not care about
commas or such
i like you
like your flowing words!

11/20

2011-07-25T07:48:00.000-07:00

my heart ached,
how could i leave it unfinished?
i took steps to go away,
but went back
and forth
and back again....
oh, the pain!

my lips parched,
i cant leave it half-done -
no, i cannot go away!
i will go back
and forth
and back again...
can't refrain

my heart raced,
oh why is it so tough
to just leave it and run!
do i have to go back
and forth
and back again?
am i that insane?

like with unfinished stories,
from half-attended coffee mugs -
i cant walk away...
i will go back
and forth
and back again
and again and again! :)

[Well, this is what it does to you when you leave your coffee mug unfinished in the morning and rush back and forth wanting to dash to work but still not wanting to let go of coffee! :D]

2011-07-19T16:01:00.000-07:00

Antidote or Pain?

She calms me, she claims me
she lays me bare
she finds me, she holds me
catches me unawares!

She plays me, she teases
sets up a trap!
she looks at me, she gestures
and am stuck in a time wrap!

She loves me, she hates me
and loves me again
she hurts me, she nurses
is both the antidote and the pain!

2011-07-17T19:31:00.000-07:00

if you had to ask me what stimulation means

or what being-turned on is

or what being on high is all about....

if you ask me what seduction means

or how going weak in the knees feels like

or what's it like to to be intoxicated...

if you were to ask me what lifts me up

or what keeps me on toes

or what i am longing for...

i'd reply,

Coffee? :)

(Coffee comes to the rescue most of the times when i feel so sleepy and like the "dumb-self" in distress...such times, and especially when in office, coffee is the knight-ess in no armor ;)..)

2011-07-03T22:29:00.000-07:00

being happy is easy

really is

i do not have to think much

when i think of bliss...

just have to close my eyes,

think of you

and there's the happiness streak

that leads to you!

2011-05-26T23:46:00.000-07:00

rain, rain,

only if you'd come by

you'd ease the pain!

oh come by when you do,

come and slide over

no.. dont refrain..

the way you wet

my parched soul and life

cant you just remain?

i know you're there,

lurking looking...

and am waiting for you again!

oh rain!....

(pic clicked at Munnar, 2009)

2011-04-16T12:57:00.000-07:00

Thought of You...

thought of you,

yet again

and stopping by to look,

to see, to say

to smile, to sway!

thought of the smile,

yet again

and passing by to steal,

a glance, a wink

to dream, to think!

thought of the laugh,

yet again

and flying by to feel,

the breeze, the wind

to smile, to grin!

2011-02-22T00:07:00.000-08:00

My share of sky...

its not far away -the sky,

it just seems so

if you just reach out,

you'll see, you'll know..

stop trying,

stop trying to be happy or sad -

it is just around the corner..

true emotions, ain't frilly fad!

right within your reach,

is your share of sky :-)

reach out for the rainbow -

it's right here, the sky, your smile!

2011-01-31T00:51:00.000-08:00

The Fling! ;-)

what is it
but a feeling first..
and slowly surely,
there's a fling burst ;)

and then this fling
takes you where
your thoughts have not
it lays bare -

the real and the unreal,
such is a flight
Tw'ixt dreams and the real
oh and then surely the plight?

yes, when they land
these unreal flights
with a jolt here and there –
lo behold, there's a fight :D

from the feeling to the fling
and when it turns to a flight
all is well, yes, all is
until the flight turns a fight ;)

so before you get into
feeling the fling –
beware my friend!
of such rambling! :D

2011-01-31T00:48:00.000-08:00

To hide...

to hide from her smile,
from that teasing glance
and to sneak a look
when i have a chance...

to hide from her laughter -
the resounding one
and to sneak another peek,
when she's done..

to hide from everything
that is just not her
and to open my eyes
to see, her, forever!

2009-09-26T12:00:00.000-07:00

hi blog, what's up,
who you? what now?

err, umm, i am "the" one
who writes none?

No, i was busy -
ignoring's easy?

*sigh*you won't understand -
you state your stand!

i always wanted to!
nobody ever stopped you!

but, then, there was, so much...
excuses, fumbling, and such?

argghhh, okay, okay - what?
nothing, just start!

i will, i will, my blog, my friend! :-)
ah, that's setting a trend :-)

David Antony,
27/09/09; 0032 hrs...

2009-04-25T23:19:00.001-07:00

Life for Rent...

...thanks to Dido - me and my friend, Shruti: had a good exchange of thoughts on our Orkut scrapbooks, in a different style though :-D

She has the lyrics of the song Life for Rent on her profile... and to that song, i replied, and then she did, and then i and then she....:

David:
it is just a thought, only a thought :-)

Shruti:
If my life is for rent...

David:
if it is,
till when, why
did you think of it?
did you reason why?

only a thought,
i agree, yes
but what's the root -
did you address?

if only a thought,
let it be, let it be...
for when it passes,
you'll smile, happily :-)

Shruti:
thoughts are troublesome
you may think those will pass...
they do not go away so easy...
will move keeping the scars apast

if my life is for rent..
I will see who would love it
because I want to see...
If it's all good I am living with...

but as if now, It's just a thought...
thinking about life is little pain
dont think the thoughts have no roots
it has been long time...since it rained...

David:
thoughts, troublesome or not
are replaced some day,
by new thoughts -
that will come your way...

for rent, lease, mortgage
temporarily, it is, can be...
but, remember, this time, these words
when they'll be gone, we'll still be :-)

let thoughts be thoughts
for they sprout anew
the rain, it will fall -
and your spirits renew :-)

Shruti:
so...as u said..
I will be waiting
for the new thoughts...
I will keep waiting

I hope that
new thoughts will sprout
give me a new life
I will keep waiting

I will live my life
no matter how it is
will not wait for others to decide...
my life is not for evaluating...

by those people
who never lived life..
and will not ever be living
I will not be waiting

I have released the thought
of renting my life..
I will myself take over it...
I cant be waiting...

David:
happy waiting,
i wish, i pray
and next time, they come
talk aloud, i say..

for when you air them
someone will catch, speak
give back new thoughts,
and answers that you seek

hApPy living,
not rented, renting - but your own
for the seeds for the new
are already sown....

you cant be waiting.
not now, not later
for that moment is now
and there is no greater!

so, spread your wings -
that's been drawn, close, shut
take out the signboard -
tell the world, the renting shop is shut :-D

...to be continued :-)

26th April, 2009

2009-01-22T05:12:00.000-08:00

Living right, wrong,
living full, living at all...
Ain't they all relative?

i seek, i ask,
who can tell me?

Who can tell me more
so i receive what i seek
and be answered to what i ask....

Laughing right, wrong
laughing the right amount...
Ain't that subjective?

i knock, i call out
so that the answer be opened to me
and someone hears my call...

Too high, too low
or is it in between?
Ain't that estimative?

i measure, i ask myself
so that i know the right dimension
and realization, dawns upon....

Too near, very far,
or nearer than afar
aint that perspective?

i presume, i fear,
would someone assure me
and allay my fears?...

David Antony,
22/01/2009

2008-11-03T09:53:00.000-08:00

Goodbye...

Does everyone
in their lifetime once,
have to say good bye?
Even when
not wanting to
do those moments just pass by?

Why, why,
why do we grow close to someone
only to go our own ways?!
Is this life?
that all of us live?
can we but otherwise, say?

I Don't know,
no, i don't! - what it is
and what is not
For even as
am still dreaming,
one by one, the dreams are shot!

Does it end?
once and for all?
the coming close and going apart?
If it wasn't,
if it wasn't to be
then why did it have to start?

What remains?
nothing but memories -
the ones we love to cling on!
Whatever they be,
they are all you have!
and life - doesn't it still go on?

Smiling again -
does it happen?
or is it tears all along?
But wait -
what use are tears?
Wouldn't you rather Smile on?

Goodbye?
when we say it daily
we mean to meet next day...
But this once -
when we say
we mean we're going away...

Going away?
to the seeing of again?
au revoir, i would say...
What else?
but i'll remember you
every night when i kneel to pray... :-)

David Antony,
03/11/2008

(i wrote this as a reply to what one of my friends and a wonderful poet Vatsal had posted on a forum - it was an instant reply, so a li'l crude. But i felt it best to keep it that way so it is what it is, a reply to Vatsy, a poet i admire and a question to myself :-)...)

2008-09-09T07:53:00.000-07:00

Swinging... ;-)

I was swinging
Ahem! I mean, from tree to tree
And I was singing
Ever so happily!

Hopping from tree to tree
Oh what a fun it is :-)
If you haven’t tried it yet
you’ve missed it and the bliss!

Eve’thing was perfect
And everything so glee
Except for one awful moment
And my trademark stupidity!

I took a leap -
More than I could reach
And life decided
It had a new lesson to teach

Tumbling, falling, screaming -
I came crashing down
Eve’thing went up in air
All the laughter and the frowns

“Down comes the clown”,
said the onlookers and passers by...
And I tried my best to smile
but the fall didn’t help my “try”

“Thud” once, “thud” twice
and so many many more!
“Ouch” once and twice
and so many in store!

That gentle soothing sound within –
Firm and clear – it said to me
“grab a hold – right here, right now”
And I threw my arms – frantically

Ah! My hands - after all did
latch on to a branch!!
And hanging there in mid-air
i did an acrobatic dance ;-)

the more I danced, the more I thought
about the fall and such
but what else could I do now?
Just hang on - and nothing much…

Hanging on the branch of hope
I thought to myself now
Where did I go wrong?
How did I fall - just how?

The gentle soothing sound –
Yes, it spoke again!
“leave your grip and let go –
don’t live on with that pain”

Leave my grip and let go?
What a foolish thing to say!
I don’t know why – was I mad?
But I did it anyways!

I thought I was falling -
falling straight down…
but to my surprise, my feet -
they immediately felt firm ground!

Hanging on to that branch –
afraid of falling down…
I didn’t realize the fact -
I was just two feet off the ground ;-)

I walked off with a smile
and a lesson learnt that day
no more swinging from tree to tree
and reaching branches far, far away!

David Antony
09/09/08

Psst psst....On second thoughts….
Hanging on the branch of hope -
you never will know…
When your dreams answer you,
when at your doorstep show! :-)

So the question is - to hang or to let go? :-D

2008-05-29T22:14:00.000-07:00

The Road Ahead

i wanted to tell her -
tell her not to go
we'd walk so many miles
she, me, our dreams...

we'd decide...
decide to leave eve'thing behind
stranded on the walk of life
our dreams, me, her absence

i see the road ahead..
the road ahead to nowhere!
i will keep walking
thinking, wondering, crying...

i'd be eager to look back
look back on the path we trod
and remember the times of joy -
of laughter, fun, and smiles

i'd like to know -
know where this road ends
for when it does, i'd lay down
my dreams, my heart, my hopes...

David Antony,
25/05/2008

2008-05-18T04:28:00.000-07:00

Two steps with you in the walk of life,

two steps that have seen smiles and strife...

not the moon, the stars, or a bidding adieu,

all i want is to walk the remaining steps of my life with you! :-)

(Pic clicked @ Ocean Beach, San Francisco)

2008-05-01T09:13:00.000-07:00

When the Universe Stands Still...

Hark, night!...
don’t move, stay still
the starts, the moon – shine…
shine on my window sill

shine, shine brightly
make her eyes sparkle
and when your light falls on her face,
behold! A spectacle…

I’d want you to stay still night
till we stay in this embrace
and as I gaze into her eyes -
captivated by her grace…

in the closeness of the moment,
the universe will stand still…
and I know, me and her,
we’ll be glad for it to, we will! :-)

David Antony
1st May, 2008
(Photo clicked at Pier 39, San Francisco)

2008-04-15T00:48:00.000-07:00

Spotting the Stars....

i stepped out to spot the star
the one that'll stare back at me..
and when i smile at it -
smile back with endless glee...

so i began looking up above...
one, two, three and not one yet..
but i had just started counting -
so what was there to fret?

four and five and six,
and still no smiles my way..
where did those stars go?
not one did choose to stay?

there will be one...
i know there will be atleast one
for there were so many who'd smile at me -
can't believe, now, there's none!

one thousand and one..
and one thousand and two and three....
and one .......tho..
lo! i drifted into a sad, frustrated sleep

in my dreams i counted stars
and the count still stood at "nought"
i tried to think what it meant..
and i grew more restless as i thought...

i woke up with a start -
thought it was 'cause of the count - "none"
but.. i realized, it was something beautiful..
it was the bright and shining sun :-)

though the stars are gone -
i wont worry about 'em smiling back...
for my Sun is shining bright!
and my Smile is back on track :-)

David Antony,
13/04/2008

2007-11-19T17:12:00.000-08:00

It Rained Today...

it rained today..
and i thought about you...
the last time it rained..
we were together - me and you...

Well, the rains are here again,
soothing, soaking the land, the mind
if only you were with me,
a rainbow i could find..

i kept walking on -
raindrops hitting my head,
they kept speaking to my heart,
like a thousand words unsaid..

they spoke about those moments,
the ones i long to relive -
the moments i miss the most..
the magic those moments weaved...

it stopped raining,
but the land was wet, kissed by the rain..
and my mind, my eyes - wet..
kissed by the memories, by pain..

am waiting, waiting for you..
waiting to be together again,
and for the rainbow; for
when we're together, it will rain...

David Antony,
19/11/2007

2007-10-31T11:24:00.000-07:00

The Leaves Come Falling Down....

Yes, the leaves are falling
one by one, down they come..
they are leaves of hope, leaves of joy,
and leaves of dreams - for some..

for me, they are leaves of yesterday,
the moments that are gone by,
one by one they come falling down..
as each moment bids good-bye..

as i look forward, new moments -
new leaves will be coming soon..
and as i wait in joyful hope
the leaves, flowers, they will bloom...

David Antony,

31/10/2007

2007-09-07T12:54:00.000-07:00

The Teardrop………

I saw a teardrop and asked
"Hey, whom do u belong to?"
It said, "I am rolling down your cheeks"
"so I belong to the one called 'you'"

I was startled, I was surprised
To realize that I was crying
I wasn't so sure it was true
The teardrop could have been lying!

So I asked the teardrop again
The reason why it came down
It said, the only reason was,
"You have been feeling down"

I laughed it off and I told the tear,
"I am laughing, it's not a frown!"
Your laughter is, but a mask, it said
To hide the sorrows deep down.

Was it right? Was I wrong?
I called my heart to find out
"Hey heart, are you hurt?"
it heard, and it cried aloud.

Hurt it was, I could see
As my heart cried its heart out
I couldn't see as plain a fact
And my heart began to rant about

It ranted about the betrayals -
The hurt that my neared ones gave
Friends, relatives, and myself –
With my heart they misbehaved

I'd realize now, albeit a bit late
That I was really hurt deep down
My heart was bleeding; it's true
My laughter was a disguised frown

And as I turned to address
The teardrop once again,
It had fallen down my cheeks
I was crying with hurt, with pain!

----David Antony

2007-09-05T23:00:00.001-07:00

Happy Teacher's Day

To my Teachers,
for they taught me many things
and more than that
put the spark of curiosity in me...

To my Parents,
for they taught me what life is
and also made me what i am-
awakened the spirit of humanitiy...

To my Sisters,
for they taught me what patience is
and put up with all my tantrums, snobbiness -
awakened love and understanding in me...

To Her,
for she taught me what love is
and made me believe in myself -
taught me what "missing" someone means...

To my Friends,
for they taught me the meaning of friendship
and have been with me through everything -
taught me the spirit of "Friends Forever"-ness

David Antony,
05/09/2007

2007-08-15T05:46:00.000-07:00

A fleeting thought,a glorified word,
that is not what Freedom is...
A bunch of songs, a flag to boast,
Freedom is much more than this...
It is a state of mind, it is a way of life
it is to live with pride - not just survive...
the whole world knows and so sings the wind -
come join me as i shout, Jai Hind

David Antony

2007-08-05T01:19:00.000-07:00

Happy Dosti Day

Raindrops adorn my window pane,
and there's a rainbow,
stretched across my memory lane..

The colors are few but they are true,
and one beautiful color,
my Friend, is You! :-)

A Happy Dosti Day to All my Friends...
Pramod, Sunil, Ashish, Gayu, Muddu, Shammi, Mercy, Shrads, Navya, Viv, Shabbu, Jiu, Dushman, Prad, Minu, Pappu, Jawzzie, Sahil, Anu, Gappu, Sri, Ani, and all friends who've strummed the strings of my life and left a tone that'll be a melody for me all my life...

2007-07-30T21:29:00.000-07:00

Glued to ur chairs,

earning for your life??

What's the big deal folks

if u cant get out and enjoy?

Did you see the raindrops falling?

Did you watch the leaves dance?

Did you ever peep out of your window

to see nature's beauty, by any chance?

I went out and felt the falling raindrops

I went and with the leaves i danced

I went out and made the most of life

Maybe, i wont get a second chance!

- David Antony

2007-05-14T08:05:00.000-07:00

Rain your smiles
Rain your smiles on me..
and when it's flooded all around..
i'll ask for more rain to fall on me!

Rain your tears
Rain your tears on me..
and when it's rained all tears that you've got..
i'll pray that the tear-rain - may never be!

Rain your Love
Rain your Love all around..
and when it's flooded and raining still...
i'll be glad to plunge and get drowned!

David; 14/05/2007

2006-12-15T05:43:00.000-08:00

I saw a dream last night..

I saw a dream last night..
and am wondering what it was..
and i don't know how it came to me
the "No Entry" sign - trespassed!

i really dont like seeing dreams
i hate to dream anymore..
i love to hate my dreams by now -
and hate it to my heart's core!

but what i saw yesterday was
something different and new
i dont know if you've gone through this
it left me without a clue!

i was walking without an aim..
i was walking down the street
strange and livid people i met
- the strangest i'd ever meet!

all of them wore a mask
that hid emotions behind a smile
all of them, eerily happy!
t'was nothing more than their guile!

t'was strange, but strangely true
that they really looked happy and glee
but i just couldn't gulp down that fact
and my mind, it just wanted to flee

flee and run to a distant land
where my sorrows i would find
i don't know why i've been dreaming so
maybe, its just my distressed mind!

Now am awake and widely too
but still, i am not so sure -
whether i dreamt of happiness
or of sorrow and its hues?

as the fog lifts off my mind
and as things - clearer they seem,
maybe i should go back to sleep
and find out what was my dream! :-D

as i perfrom that solemn task
i wish you melodious clefs
and that you have a musical weekend
as we all chorus "TGIF!"

(jst a random - Friday morn poem for colleagues...)

-David Antony, 15/12/2006

2006-11-02T10:34:00.000-08:00

Loved and lost?....

Is there sadness in my eyes?
Does my smile speak of pain?
Is my laughter masked with sorrow?
Am I crying once again?

Is there hope for tomorrow?
Will I see a dawn once again?
Am I destined to lose it all?
Are my tears flowing in vain?

Does love have a meaning,
if two loving hearts can’t unite?
Do relationships have a meaning –
When all you can do is fight?

Have you seen a tunnel,
that has no start, no end?
Am I looking down one such,
or is it just a bend?

What happened to those days?
When nothing seemed to go wrong?
Where did I lose those moments?
Or was it Utopia all along?

What happened to that smile,
That never left my face?
Did she run away?
To sorrow, she lost the race?

What wrong have I done?
Why should I pay the cost?
Are all doors really closed on me?
Have I really loved and lost?

Did you hear footsteps?
Is something coming my way?
Oh! That’s just a bag of sorrows -
And they are here to stay!

David Antony,
02/11/2006, 23:59

2006-08-05T05:02:00.000-07:00

A Happy Dosti Day

The eternal pessimist asked me once..
Tell me who is a friend for you?
Er, Umm...i fumbled for words..
well, i was searching for answers true

With a firm voice, I said,
"A friend is more than a word"
but the pessimist could not understand
that emotions overrule words..

"The one who makes you laugh
and wipes your tears away.."
The pessimist laughed and said
"There are comedy shows and tissues too, anyways!"

"The one who knows that you are strong
and knows your weaknesses too!" -
i said with pride on my face
but the pessimist laughed and said "poooh pooh"

i got tired of explaning to him
what i mean by a friend..
So i just pointed to YOU -
and said "This is the meaning of a Friend!"

That did the trick, you know
the pessimist was silenced forever!
and he knows that- pessimism is no match
for a Friend who stays for ever..

So as i fondly cherish and remember
each of my special friends today,
with a gleaming smile and proud a heart
i wish you - A Very Happy Dosti Day....

David Antony

06/08/2006

Dedicated to all my friends and especially - Pramod, Sunil, Ashish, Gayu, Puja, Muddu, Prad, Sahil, Tarun, Minu, Shwets, Merc, Shammi, Vinee, RT, Glo, Nams, Manju, Ben.. and all of you... thank u for your beautiful friendship

2006-07-27T23:28:00.000-07:00

i was getting ready for office
and she said she's coming along...
how could i say "no"?
but she said she'll stay for long!

i let her come with me
and she stayed so close, oh my!
so many glances and stares..
they were having fun - the people going by

She just stuck to my lips!
no, she didn't do it by guile...
i tried hard to stop her but
no way, she wont go - my sMiLe! :-)

TGIF!!! have a beautiful day and a wonderful weekend!!!

David Antony
28/07/2006

2006-04-06T02:16:00.000-07:00

You need a li’l color on your face!!

Searching for something?
Are you feeling out of place?
I just know what you need –
You need a li’l color on your face!!

Look beyond your computer screen
There’s life above and beyond
There’s a world without copy-paste
Where e-mails don’t surround!

Have you ever tried to look around?
Or are you busy running the race?
I just know what you need –
You need a li’l color on your face!!

Look beyond the crowded bus
There’s life outside and beyond
There’s a world with green grass and seas
Where worries don’t surround

Have you ever tried lending a helping hand?
Or are you just trying to hide your face?
I just know what you need –
You need a li’l color on your face!!

Look beyond long working hours
there’s life after and beyond
There’s a world where time stands still
where happiness surrounds!

Have you ever tried to blaze your trail?
Or are you still lost in the corporate maze?
I just know what you need –
You need a li’l color on your face!!

Look beyond the corporate ladder
There are things taller and more profound
There’s a time for everything
when you too, will prosper and abound

Have you ever watched children play with colors?
Do you feel its just a silly craze?
I just know what you need –
You need a li’l color on your face!!

So try to add some color to your life
Don’t you just sit around and whine!!!
I don’t know what you are up to folks
But, I am already coloring mine!

David Antony
14/03/2006

2006-02-14T00:33:00.000-08:00

Do we need Feb 14th??

They say it's the Valentine's
isn't it a day like any other?
Some people make it special
some people never bother

i gave ample thought to this...
do we need a special day?
if we really care about someone
can't we say it just any day?

Partly true, i did feel
but i also thought a lot
why do we have the Feb 14th?
what is this hype all about?

then my scarce wisdom bank
lent me some food for thought
your money can buy many things
but love cannot be bought

In this pathetic race of life
our voices get supressed
though there's love deep in our being
it rarely gets expressed

So as we have this day on hand
Why dont we speak our mind?
some people who are near you now
maybe, tomorrow you wont find

So as you express your feelings to
Your Parents,Kids, Beloved and Friends
i pray, that as your river of life flows
may the love in it never end

Whoa! Now i'd like to end my words
B'coz i always have too much to say
so i'd better end it now
by wishing you 'A HaPpY VaLeNtInE's DaY!'

David Antony

2006-01-17T22:38:00.000-08:00

GOOD, BETTER, AND BEST MORNING.......

A tragic tale uwinds here my friends. My morning was awesome today......as soon as i entered the office today, i was pestered with questions - right from the ever-alert and always-yawning security guard to the ever-'concerned' and always-smirking PMs......everyone wanted to know what happened to my eyes...... Sulkingly, though i had to speak the truth......
This is what i said to all of them.......

"I was walking along my lane today
when i winked at a girl so cute
Well, i didnt know she had a brother
so big and so very brute.....

He gave me a gift - a mighty punch
and taught me a new lesson altogehter
now, before i wink at any girl- i ask,
"Lady, do you have a big brother??."

So my eyes are red and my heart has fled
to a land of sorrow and mourning
but i can't stop from wishing you all
a Bright and lovely - BEST MORNING.."

2005-11-27T21:46:00.000-08:00

About……….

About the birds of the air,
and the fish in the seas,
About the color of her hair
and the smile that I see!

About my days in the sun
and the days that I wept
About the one and only one
And my heart that she’s kept!

About the stars in the sky,
and the twinkle in her eye
About the times, she asked why
and the times I had to lie!

About the dreams in my eye
and the longings of my heart
About the feeling that makes me cry
and how it tears my heart apart!

About what if she says a no
and what if it is a yes
About her love that I don’t know
and what if I make a mess?

I think of all these things
and I wait in joyful glee
just to know her feelings,
and what she thinks about me!

- David Antony

This is the answer that came to my mind when someone asked me in the morning, "What are you thinking about?"

2005-11-23T04:05:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine’s…

This is a true story that happened to me during my wonder years......it was my junior college days and there was this cute dame, who was as cute as she could be.....i was delighted, thrilled, and enthralled as the Valentine's day was fast approaching. But something special happened on that day, which changed my life forever........this is what happened:

Happy Valentine’s…

What an awful fall it was
Don’t ask me when and how
The day I fell for that stupid bait
The day I fell in love

I was standing by the college wall
With a faithful friend of mine
I waited for the perfect girl
Who would be my Valentine

Oh! that smile that made me fall-
To never rise up again
Oh that eyes that injured my heart-
I still remember that pain

She walked into my class that day
And straight into my heart
She smiled at me. No big deal
But I knew that was a start

She walked across the lawn that day
With a beautiful rose in hand
Perplexed, anxious, and confused- I stood
But my knees wouldn’t help me stand

I was standing on the other side
And she was walking across to me
Our eyes – they met and my heart- it leapt
With joy and with endless glee

I remember the day- that awesome day
It was the Valentine’s
She came to me and she gave the rose
To the ‘faithful’ friend of mine!

I didn’t cry. No, I didn’t laugh
But managed to flash a smile
I did brood and I was sad
But that was just for a while

She came to me- hand-in-hand
With the ‘faithful’ friend of mine
I beamed with joy and wished them both
A happy Valentine’s!

I no longer stand by the college wall
In search of a Valentine
Someone, Somewhere…….is waiting for me
Who will be mine………just MINE!

Heartbreakingly yours,

David Antony

2005-11-10T03:00:00.000-08:00

A thousand words………

A thousand words can never convey
The feeling I have for you...

A thousand sighs can’t express
How much I do miss you...

A thousand roses can’t describe
The beauty that resides in you..

A thousand rainbows can never paint
My love that’s just for you..

A thousand birds can never sing
The song in my heart for you..

A thousand hearts can never beat
The way my heart beats for you!

- dedicated to the unknown 'you' of my life!

2005-10-18T22:49:00.000-07:00

To the 9 of u..from, the 10th one!

People came and went;
They strummed the strings of my life-
Some strummed sweet soft melody,
And some struck the chords with strife.

What does strumming and strings and melody got to do with all of us? - You may ask me; I asked too. No, I didn’t have to switch my faculties onto the ‘introspection’ mode to dig an answer for this one..

Amongst the ppl I’ve met in life some have struck the chords of my life with sweet melody, while some have struck the chords with strife-with disharmony.. and some have passed my life without touching the strings at all.. I’ll be more than glad to sit back at some point in my life and listen to the sweet melodies that each of u have struck in my life. I’ll savour and cherish these melodious memories for a long long time……… there would have been disharmonies also amongst us..maybe someone struck the chord with strife..but then there is no friendship with its own share of sweet li’l quarrels and consequent patch-ups and make-ups! (hold it gals, please don’t rush to the wash room for ur routine ‘make up’) If I have struck an unpleasant chord in any of your lives, knowingly or unknowingly, I apologize..

Now, the biggest question was...WHAT DO I BLOG ABOUT? Pappu has already given a nice intro and he’s turning into a professional blogger(though, his blog site did get a major boost when he included my glamorous photo in it). Shwets has scripted down lines of farewell in her blog...i wasn’t left with too much of dry area to set my foot on. So I thought of this:
With the memories that are lingering in my mind right now,..i thought, I’d create a profile for each one of us…..so that each of us at some latter point of time in life, can come back, read, and laugh at and admire each other too!

A tribute and acknowledgement to Animal Kingdom subjects (Tarun and Denzil) for providing inspiration through their blog! Thnx dudes!

No holds barred. No strings attached. Here I go: (alphabetically, of course)

ANURAG GUPTA Ji a.k.a Anu, a.k.a MYSELF, a.k.a “Obra ka Chokra”

First thing he says when he opens his mouth:

“Myself Anurag, from Obrah, UP….”

Always found at:
New joinee’s desks!

Who is he?
Ask the new joinees! They can tell u better! The only guy amongst us with the ‘decent’ tag conferred on him by the ladies. Moreover, this Siddha sadha bachha is the first one who’s gonna get married amongst us guys..and have bacchas of his own! Close sources reveal tht his parents have already found a bahu and he’s gonna get married b4 december this year! Whtvr, he is a really cool chap..hats off to u. The way u tolerated our jokes with u being at the receiving end -is really amazing..but hey don’t u relax coz we r not gonna leave u at this. There’s more to come!

Alternative career option:
Hair-dresser, HR Executive

Five years down the line:
Software programmer with three wives (the first smart, the second beautiful, and the third – an engineer!) and ‘n*’ kids.
*n à n is variable and it tends to an unknown value……
and most importantly, u cud see a playground on his head...tht shining takla of anurag!

JOSCELINE MASCARENHAS a.k.a Jawz, Jawzziee, Jo, “Squeaking Creature”, etc..

First thing she says when she opens her mouth:
??????? UHF sounds are not audible, sorry!

Always found at:
Not just Jazz by the bay, Swimming pool, diggin away the beaches with Junior…..blah blah blah

Who is she?
A vivacious girl..likes salsa and jiving..can be found ‘salsa’ing away in the office on Fridays and Saturdays. Can work late hours with amazing regularity and then immediately fall ill too ;-). This gal aims to make it big in the field of writing…and we all believe – she can do it. All the best Jawzzie! And thnks for providing all those chocolates, the warm ‘unz, and the ‘mwaaahs’!

Alternative career option:
Circus joker(juggles things very well..i remember the coffee cups on my desk)

Five years down the line:
Skill Head, either at L10 or some e-learning organization….and may be with some cute li’l ‘juniors’ of her own too!

MINAL a.k.a Minaal, Minu, MILAN, ‘kadhi-kadhi’, DOMBARIN,et.al.

First thing she says when she opens her mouth:
(Pls read in marathi)
“tey kay mhantat?”

Always found at:
Her godmother’s, PG’s, desk!

Who is she?
A poet and a shayar par excellence! Known to wear emotions on her sleeves! The way she jumps abt taking her decisions, could give the ‘jumping jack’ a run for his money! She’s currently looking for a better-half on the other side of the world! If shwets is leaving, she has to follow..thts why there wud be a goodbye frm her too, soon! Wud be always remembered for the tag team she formed with Shweta and the way they did “ankhon ankhon mein ishaara” and suddenly burst out laughing! Milan should alwys be kept awy frm mirrors coz once she sees one, her hands involuntarily get into action trying to redo her hairstyle and make-up! So wud-be suitors, please note!

Alternative career option:
Make-up artist, poet, shayar, et.al.

Five years down the line:
An MS in writing! Settled in the US of A juggling with __ no of kids(Milan please fill in the blanks after 5 yrs) and her free lancing career as a writer too! And a new hair-style too!

NISHANT a.k.a “Marathi” Salvi, Salvage, Nishi…

First thing he says when he opens his mouth:
(Pls read in marathi)
“chai la..”

Always found at:
Infy ka canteen! U call him anytime and ask “nishi where are u?”, pat comes the reply, “Canteen”!

Who is he?
A well-rounded personality, full of wit and vigour! Famous arnd in L10 for his witty one-liners. Was also famous for winning the “Lazy-Friday Contest”..i still remember that prize-winning caption “Oye Basanti, In kutton ke saamne mat nach”..proudly displayed his prize on his desk and I believe, still does so at infy! More famously, he’s linked with the “Kushalappa” sisters of Banglore and is known to date both the sisters!!!!!!! Aww, and he also specializes in arranging accommodation for the besahara gals of Infy……”jinka koi nahi hota unka, ‘marathi’ salvi hai na!”

Alternative career option:
Con-man – can easily dupe ppl with his words!

Five years down the line:
Smiling on the front page of Ascent, “Hi, I am Nishant Salvi, and I’ve been with Infosys for the past 5 years….blah, blah , blah…….

PRADEEP a.k.a Prad, Pdip, Somu, Silver mani, kamina,

First thing he says when he opens his mouth:
Aaannnnn!!! Kamineeeee...

Always found at:
Sahil’s desk or the desks of the myriads of his female admirers!

Who is he?
The only one amongst us with the 24X7 flash on his face! A total entertainer and a comedian par excellence. Known to have had multiple affairs on the Microsoft side of L10. Wud go into the history of legendary love stories as a wonderful romantic pair along with ‘NOORIE’. We wud describe this story to the next generation as, ”..and finally, Pdip and Noorie went their own ways(or graves? For Noorie!) and they lived happily ever after!” Wud be always remembered for “the mail” that he sent to the DH (Lunia) and how he tried to salvage the situation! Proud owner of many proprietary one-liners: “what you say will be used against you” being the best(shwts and minu can vouch for this!). Has been accused by all for infiltrating our vocabs with the word “kamina”! Kamineeeeee Pdip!

Alternative career option:
Camera flash-man, Entertainer, et.al,

Five years down the line:

At the Sahar airport, with an MS in Telecom, settled in the US of A, married to a babe frm his own university, some junior pdips tugging along, Pdip says to his Mom, “Sorry mom, yeh aapki bahu aur yeh aapke pote-potiyan!!!!!!”

SAHIL a.k.a Grumpy, “Cutest-one-eye-browed-frown-in-the-universe”

First thing he says when he opens his mouth:
Sheeeeeee...kya hai yeh?????

Always found at:
His own desk! Or at the max at Pdip’s desk! He’s got this amazing capacity to affix himself on his chair with something more adhesive than a ‘Fevicol ka Jod’!

Who is he?
The star amongst us – touted to crack one of the IIMs this time, but we would vouch for ‘the one’ – IIMA! Has been diagnosed with the “Cutest one-eyebrowed frown in the universe”! Has found in the RKs, SKs,et al, many ardent admirers and die-hard fans of his enigmatic personality. This chap has been the quintessential grumpy amongst us displaying his grumpiness at every opportunity available. Kamina, though he is, and does all this NAKHRAS and grumpiness, he’s one invaluable friend that each of us is proud to have. We wish we’d photographed him when he imitated ‘RK’ – it’s so real!!!!!! He’s the only one amongst us who was fascinated by the canteen food and with amazing regularity he offered us treats at Siddhi Caterers after 8:30! And he’s known to posses amazing table manners too –the way he dug a pit in the rice plate and ate just like a bird pecking at grains! ;-) His undying admiration for ‘SS’ on the Microsoft side has become a part of the folklore here! And finally, he’s the one who’s known to dance like a star when he’s got the true ‘Spirit’ inside of him! Infamous for often venturing out on clandestine dates with you-know-who!

Alternative career option:
Grumpy No.1 (Nothing else suits him!)

Five years down the line:
An IIM grad, sporting the cutest one-eyebrowed frown on the cover page of some magazine that announces him as the next ‘big thing’ of the Indian business scenario!

SAPNA a.k.a Sappy

First thing he says when he opens his mouth:
“Mammaaaaaaaa…”

Always found at:
Her own desk! Or at the max at Minal’s desk(not much of a difference anyways.

Who is She?
A core member of the team of “the Three Gossipers – at the smoking zone”! Held in high esteem by the PMs for being regularly irregular at work. Holds the dubious (or undubious) distinction of taking more leaves than she was entitled to. I am beginning to wonder whether the number of days she worked is more or the number of days she was on leave?? No prizes for guessing this one folks. She’s been very busy lately (ever since V**** was in town). I have strict instructions to keep under wraps any further information. So, sadly though, thts all about Sappy. For more information, please contact sappy personally.

Alternative career option:
Audience for stage shows and dramas (bcoz performers appreciate audience who are or seem to be attentive and earnest!)

Five years down the line:
globe trotting – Singapore, germany, et. al. with a couple of kids running around crying “mamma, mamma……..”

SHWETA a.k.a SWAY-DHAAA, Shwets, Shweta Aunty, Jane Iyer, and now, she’s Mrs. Shweta!

First thing she says when she opens her mouth:
“Shuddup”

Always found at:
Minal’s desk, plotting and hatching conspiracies and mega ‘kaands’!

Who is She?
Oh my! I’ve been trying to find an answer for this question since long..she’s the tag team companion of Minal – a partner in crime for their ‘ankhon-ankhon-mein-ishaara-and-bursting-into-laughter’ crimes. She’s managed to pull off this ‘ishaaras’ quiet frequently - even to the point of compelling me to seriously doubt her sanity or for that matter, corroborate the facts abt her insanity! She’s been instrumental in pulling off ‘mega kaands’ along with minaal, some visible and the others invisible! Was the self-proclaimed and (un)unanimously accepted leader of the L10 group. She did initiate all our movie trips and meet-ups. Thanks shwets! Was very famous in L10, for delegating work to others!i’ve heard even the ‘grey saree’ brigade used to write her ISDs ;-) and did u hear tht? She’s the first employee to get transferred frm L10 mumbai to Chennai! And pssst psst, did u hear the other one?? She wore a saree worth Rs. 250000000000000000000/- (shwets kitne zero hain yaar usme?? Mein bhool gaya!) for her wedding! gulp! An ardent admirer of Jane Eyre and Jay Sitaram - Dreams of emulating these idols of hers….all the best shwets! Has been honored and conferred with the title ‘laziest-person-around’ by the L10 group.

Alternative career option:
PM of our new company (hardly works), Singer (btw, she sings well; I heard her singing at her wedding and ever since I’ve become selectively deaf – I am deaf when shwets sings ;-) ...), Agony Aunt, et al.

Five years down the line:
PM at L10 chennai, planning to kick-off a start-up, and when u call her after 5 yrs, this wud be her reply: “shuddup, shuddup, shuddup - please don’t disturb. Arre, try to understand yaar, mere chotte chotte chotte chotte bacche hain re”

TARUN a.k.a Pappu, Puppy, lambe, Darling, “stiff ka saala”, GIRLFLOWER

First thing he says when he opens his mouth:
“Kya”(with two hands raised at an even level to show surprise!)

Always found with:
Girls, girls, and more girls!! Oops should it have been...PMs, IDs, and more PMs???????

Who is he?
Pappu the darling! He’s the ‘dahling’ of masses (please note that ‘masses’ includes only females!) Known to kill (literally, please) the female species thru his chocolate face (shee, ladkiyan bolte hain, not me!) and cute smile (somebody changed the definition of cute, I guess). Is very popular amidst the lady PMs and IDs. One ID, particularly S*, is completely smitten by the ‘Tarun’ bug. And this bug has again and again gone into ‘regression’ on her course. And obviously, she is way too happy abt the regressions! (overheard one netg girl saying to a MS girl) – “arre pappu’s cho chweet, I can have him as a sweetner in my coffee!”(poor girls, alas, they didn’t knw tht pappu doesn’t have tea or coffee – this puppy just drinks milk with Horlicks “aepang, opang, jhapaang!” and the biggest news: he’s got a brand new nickname: “GIRLFLOWER” when in e-learning field, we need to give appropriate analogies. So, just as a sunflower follows the sun, the girlflower follows a GIRL!!!!! Reliable sources confirmed tht once he did a stripping act for a college function(confirmed frm evidence on two blogs). And he has agreed to repeat tht feat for the next Netg party. Wow! Thank heavens we’ve left L10!. But, all this apart, he’s climbing the corporate ladder fast. And boy! It is real fast. Whtvr he’s with girls, at work, he’s An efficient and sincere person. Hats-off(I dont have any). Within a year, we envision him in the PMs corner busy coloring excel sheets!(obviously as a PM and not as a house-keeping guy – now, who did think otherwise???)

Alternative career option:
A puppy! (gals can cuddle and cootchie-coo with him whenever they want to ;0) )

Five years down the line:
A PM at L10 tech with a FAT pay packet and n NO, n+1…er um…its become n+2 now…….whoa! whtever…lets put it as n+n girlfriends! Alternatively, he could have even kicked-off his own start-up!

Your Absence should be long enough so that Somebody misses You.
But it should not be so long that. Somebody learns to live without You.
So, Keep in Touch.